失望了。。。给了我希望现在又弄我失望了。。说这两天就可以回来，但是现在告诉我要在多两天。。。:(

我想你。。很想你。。不知为什么当你在这边时是不会那么想你，但当你去到远远时才会想你。。。之前你告诉我那些感觉我现在都知道是什么感觉了，原来是那么的不好受。。。当等你的信息时，我真的好想哭哦。。我很想现在就看到你。。。我不知你在哄我开心还是什么，你说应该这两天就可以回来了。。。希望是这样咯。。不然我会很emo啦。。。快快和平安的回来啊。。。

很累。。。今天好像忙了一天，但是忙得当中我的视线一直都往着电话去看。。。看他有没有安全的到达他做工的地方。。今天是他outstation第一天，真的蛮担心的。。。因为之前一个好朋友发生意外，所以现在身边的人或自己出远门都会比较担心。。。还好他今天都很听话，一直都有照我的吩咐sms我当他去哪里。。那我就比较放心了，因为知道他在哪里，和他今晚在哪里住。。。他还说假如快的话过几天就可以回来了，听到这样有点小开心了。。。嘻嘻。。现在我终于了解到他之前担心我的感觉了，原来是那么的不安。。。

这个sem 有7 个assigment了。。。很压力的叻。。。在加上有presentation 了，真的是有够压力咯。。。没办法了只好加加油了。。。好了晚了，该睡了。。安安咯~~

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y la??i just came back few days then now u said u need to go outstation for working,somemore is so rush...just now when i get into ur car then u said have something wan tell me,on that time i noe is something bad because u like dun feel wan to tell me....when heard that i start to not really happy,but i cant show it to you if not u will worry..when diner and watch movie with you,i started to think if you suddenly got accidence over there then how(touch wood!!!)...i start to worry bout you...somemore need go there 1 week more...:(

bad weekend...

Last friday i going back Penang for attented my cousin sister's wedding...before that i was so happy,because everytime go back Penang except eat then still eat...hahaha...really have so many delicious food over there...all is so cheap and nice...but too bad i cant eat much this time,because when i go back there i sick already...hais...lost a nice chance to taste all the delicious food...SIGH...
1st day when reached there then having fever there,actually before going back i also start not feeling well,so i go drank "ku cha" and add those very bitter de chiness medicine already...normally i wont so willing go drink that but i know if i sick then when go back penang cant enjoy to the max already...but too bad when reached Penang my sick turned to more terrible...that night is having the wedding dinner already,so i just terpaksa go attented..because if i din go i just alone at home and nth can do aso...the night was so suffer,how i wish he just besides me and take care of me...but too bad that time he at KL...really so miss him that time...>.<
2nd day,morning my sick become more better already,this morning is cousin sister's married...she having 2 night wedding dinner,1 is at Penang another 1 night is at Alor Setar(her husband's side)..so tonight need to go Alor Setar...another day again need whole day at car...this night's dinner much more delicious that yesterday night that one...after finish the dinner need use 1 hour more travel back to Penang...that time i start flu already,so when reached home faster ate medicine then go slept...
3rd day...finally this day no more fever,but still got abit flu...today need go Ipoh awile then just go back KL....so today i got appetize already,so we had a breakfast at Penang,we go ate dim sum...tell u wat,there eat dim sum really so cheap..9 person ate oni RM70..if at KL,i think is more that RM 100 already...at night 11pm finally reached KL,i miss my house so much...so fast fast clean my clotes then go slept already..but who knows when i fall slept i keep wan wake up pangsai...whole night keep cirit -birit only...hais....thought can sleep well but who noe cirit-birit o...SIGHHH....
then this morning i din go for class,because i really no more energy already...so morning 7am sth as usual,he will msg me to wake me up...then i told him i din go for college because i cirit-birit,then he just asked me rest well at home...then slept until 9 sth,winie and issac msg me asked me where am i,then i just told then i din go for college..then i continue slept,until 10am i asked my bro go out dabao sth to me eat,but when he dabao back i cant finish it...i though no more cirit-birit already,but go 2 round somemore...this time i really no more energy already....when 1pm sth he msg me asked me feel better i aso no energy to reply him...just type short short reply him then i continue slept until 4pm sth...when woke up whole body keep sweating,after sweating i feel more better...until 6pm he msg me again asked me doin wat n feel ok anot,then asked me open door for him...actually i noe he will come find me after he work,so not really feel suprise le..hahaha...but i still happy la,because he come to find me and i few days din see him already...:)

i dunoe why i got tis feeling,but its really make me feel unhappy when with him...now become like less and less topic chat with him,and sumtime really will make me feel boring already...i just hope he wont realise this until i back to normal...sigh..i dunoe myself again...

不喜欢我就讲。。。不喜欢我就搬出去咯。。。那你们在这个家就可以为所欲为咯。。。讲我不尊敬你们，那你们何时尊敬过我呢？？？你们讨厌我，那我告诉你们我都很讨厌你们。。。从现在开始你们怎样对我，那我也会怎样对回你们。。。我不要在做个好人了。。。好人只有被别人欺负而已。。。。从今天开始我的眼泪不会在为你们而流。。。我讨厌你们，我也讨厌过去我 过分的从容你们。。。